其实我要的并不多，

这样就好了，

这样就够了。

i'm keeping my mood as high as possible. =)

had a great remark for my group research analysis.

after all the screwed things that's been happening,

i finally unscrewed something.

with this energy level,

i can go on farther.

busy.

i'm trying to get myself as occupied as possible,
(and to ignore the impossibles as i could.)

to catch up not only the missing lectures,

and also to maintain my CGPA.

Finals is no farther than it seems-
DEC 7th - 11th


last but not least,

to keep myself as healthy as ever.

these,

are my priorities now.

* * *

Thursday's ladies night has been called off.

Teddie's got tests to sit for.

we'll definitely make a trip to MOS, soon!

i need it,

a fling to loosen up a bit.

it's getting so tense now. =)

the courage i have has long gone missing
mind preoccupied with delusions, illusions and confusions

i can no longer keep myself composed
at the edge of breaking down

again and again
he is right
nothing is guaranteed

time flies. a moment ago i was back at home and 3 hours later i'm back in KL.

REALITY SHOCK! stacks of lecture notes await. i know, i've foresee this coming. sigh.

this month's resolution:

A NERD'S GOTTA DO WHAT A NERD'S GOTTA DO!

needless to say, i've got tons of paper work to do about my absence in college, MC, seeing lecturers and the Dean of Nursing. what the hell?! sigh...

and unfortunately, this month is a no party month. =(

but but but, if possible, i wish i can visit MOS in one random Ladies Night. =P

i've got tons of lecture notes to catch up with and 2 novels to read.

* * *
i'm only back in KL for 6 hours and i'm starting to miss everyone back home.

i miss naggy mom and dad; game freak Pearly; workaholic Elma; lazy yet adorable Matisse!

just a month and a half, and i'll be home again! i can pull it through, FOR SURE!

mummy dearest. =) who has too much of TLC for me!

they say we look alike, but i think otherwise.

fatty Matisse, photogenic as ever.

October review.

October is finally coming to an end, it's ending too soon without me realising it.

the first 2 weeks of October was almost madness. i went clubbing twice and find myself liking every bit of it, especially the part where the alcohol kicks in and i start dancing. =) i like it when we hit off the dance floor and started shouting along with the crowd. really, i enjoyed every bit of it. =)

sat for my LAN subjects finals and think i did not so bad. hoping to just get a credit for it. but of course, i dont mind getting a distinction for both Malaysian Studies and Moral Studies. =P

and then... i spent 2 whole weeks back in my KK recuperating from shingles infection and to prevent some complication to my current illness, the doctor said it's best to hospitalize me with drip therapy. but then again, i developed allergy reaction to the medicine on the 4th day of therapy which gives me rashes all over the body. people thought i went sun-tanning!

okay now... the thing is, i didnt give myself sufficient time to rest, causing my immune to drop all so low to get a viral and bacterial infection altogether.

THEREFORE, new resolution made for clubbing sessions.

1. i can still go clubbing ( as mom said so!) BUT, with a condition that i dont drink so much and only going once a month or lesser.

2. to drink GALLONS of water after clubbing to flush out the alcohol in me AND if possible, drink honey before bed to sooth the throat to prevent another sinusitis and throat infection.

3. VERY VERY IMPORTANT! TO GET SUFFICIENT SLEEPS and RESTS!

lol. i have to admit, clubbing is addictive especially when you're out with a bunch of great people. =) it's nice, really. but well, i've to set some ground rules in order not to withdraw from social connection. btw, who says you cant enjoy with restrictions?!

oh yeah, what i did for the past few days were EAT SLEEP SHIT! otherwise, i got myself a new haircut; bought myself a new novel- Devil Bones by Kathy Reichs; a new pair of Crocs as always wanted by mom! hmmm. and most important of all, great bonding time with my whole family. =) had abundant TenderLoveCare from everyone at home especially mom who brings me 3 meals a day to the hospital for me. thank you mom!

Before

After

p/s have i mentioned?! my new phone was stolen on the 3rd day of admission in the hospital!!! =( not only that, i lovely Teddie D has gone missing and it's irreplaceable. they're not selling it anymore.

5 Balls

i was rummaging through the novels that i've bought over the years. lie in front of me- 's Diary for Nicholas, was one of my favorite. Suzanne

flipping through the novel thoroughly, i saw this phrase concerning 5 balls in life and here it goes

Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called Work, Family, Health, Friends, and Integrity. And you're keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other 4 balls- Family, Health, Friends, integrity- are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the 5 balls, you will have the beginnings of balance in your life.

and you know what?! i finally understood.